March 8, 2010

Day 8/141

Pounds to go: 26

What a weekend! Friday night I had to make 2 batches of brownies and 2 dozen biscuits for the pee-wee wrestling tournament. I did not have ONE bite of either one and I think it was the first time in my life I didn’t lick the bowl! Saturday I got up at 5:15 and was at the school ready to help set up for the sorority concessions by 6:00. Unfortunately, no one else showed up until 6:20. (eyeroll) I worked in the kitchen until 9:00 and then went down and worked bout sheets until the tournament ended at 1:00. I took a Special K bar and ate that instead of biscuits and grave and juicy burgers. Saturday afternoon I ran errands – got Brynna’s birthday present and a new microwave – and then Dad, Jeff, Tyler and Ryan moved the new HUGE elliptical machine into our basement. Oh my goodness…it is hard! Either that or I’m REALLY out of shape. ;-) So Saturday night I tried it out... I started out doing one minute increments. …I’m serious…it’s HARD. I would do one minute on…a couple of minute off…one minute on…a couple of minutes off. I only did it about 5 times. I want to get to the point where I can just get on and go and go and go.

On Sunday I got up and had a pretzel for breakfast and some Crystal Light Ruby Red juice. I tried cleaning up the house a little bit. I took a shower and got dressed, dried my hair, put makeup on and then fell asleep on the couch. I had the slows all day. We went to Brynna’s birthday party at 3:00. I had some vegetables and a little piece of cake. After that I went and cleaned the office. I got home a little after 7:00 and had a salad and a pretzel. I really didn’t each much of anything all weekend. I only lost one pound over the weekend which is kinda frustrating, but it’s better than gaining one I guess.

I hope this week I can get serious about the elliptical and hopefully my new exercise videos will come in and I can start trying them. Exercise has got to be the key because being sedentary sure isn’t doing anything.

March 5, 2010

Day 5/144

Pounds to go: 27

Today I am up three pounds. I really don’t get it. Yesterday after work I had a Special-K granola bar and for dinner I had fish and broccoli/cheese sauce and cottage cheese – and that is all I had. For breakfast this morning I had a pretzel and some grape juice. Hmmm…frustrating.

I’ve had almost a full bottle of the peach/mango tea this morning – maybe that added some weight…I don’t know. I also have on heavy clothes…maybe that has something to do with it. I don’t know. I do know that I’m not going to give up and that I’m really anxious to start exercising. I think that will help. I mean seriously, how can it not. I don’t want to be fat anymore, I want to wear cute clothes and feel good about myself! I want people to like me and not see me as “fat”. I’ve got to figure out a way to make this work.

I think it’s going to be a busy weekend. I have to help with the pee-wee wrestling tournament tomorrow, I have to get that office cleaned, we have Brynna’s birthday party, and there is that wrestling dinner. Working the tournament and cleaning the office will not be a problem for my diet. The birthday party and the dinner could make things interesting. WILL POWER!! Hopefully I’ll get that elliptical machine set up and working this weekend. Oh…and it doesn’t help that I have to make two dozen brownies and a dozen biscuits for the tournament tonight. :-\ This is hard…but it will be worth it. I know it will.

Today was lunch at mom and dad’s with the boys. Dad was grillin Mavericks so Ryan wanted to go too. I had a hamburger with cheese and ham on it but no bacon or bun. I cut it up into lots of pieces and then added lots of tomatoes, onions, and pickles. I did not add ketchup or mustard. I had one French fry. The iced tea was awesome! Always a sign that spring is coming!

I’m having a Diet Coke this afternoon. LaDan has her apple scented candle burning, so I’m sure before long I will break down and eat my apple. I hope it tastes as good as her candle smells!

March 4, 2010

Day 4/145

Pounds to go: 24

WTH!?! I stepped on the scale this morning and I’ve lost SIX (yes, 6!) pounds! I have no idea how that happened, but it did! I’m using the digital scale at work and the last number has gone from an 8 to a 7 to a 2!

Yesterday the Schwan’s man came so I ordered a bag of the Mediterranean Vegetables and a bag of the soft pretzels. I’ll tell you what…those pretzels can really take care of a salt craving. And for only 190 calories, they are very filling, and totally worth it.

So anyway I had the vegetables with some chicken breast for dinner and some cottage cheese (yes, with a little bit of sugar). Then I had a pretzel with a little bit of salt and a little bit of cream cheese. I think once I can break the habit of the “extras” (sugar / salt / cream cheese, etc…) that will really help.

Today I’ve had a banana and another pretzel with 1 Tbsp of cream cheese. I have also had two bottles of the Crystal Light peach/mango metabolism drink. YUM. I’m not feeling hungry at all and it’s already 11:45. Not sure yet what I’ll do for lunch. Hmmm.

As I was pulling into my driveway, I was feeling hungry. Tummy hungry – not mind hungry. I do believe there is a difference. I had some kind of Asian Lean Cuisine – it was ok, but not my favorite. I also had half an avocado and five olives. I drank most of a bottle of Crystal Light – the one with extra fiber. Now I feel totally full! I brought an apple back to work with me in case the urge hits me to eat something this afternoon. I used to bring sleeves of Ritz crackers, or baggies of cookies, so this is definitely an improved habit I am forming.

I also ordered a couple of exercise DVD’s today. I got Jillian Michael’s ‘Shred’ video, a Yoga for beginners by Bob from The Biggest Loser and one other one that came in the set. I also got a pedometer. I got all of that for $30. That is probably the amount of money I will save over the next couple of weeks by not eating out. Fair trade if you ask me. I am also getting an elliptical machine from dad this weekend. That ought to be an experience! I’m actually pretty pumped about it. I know it will be hard because I’ve tried it before, but I really want to make it work. My goal is to start small and work up to an hour a day – at least four times a week. I think having it right in front of the TV will help – a lot.

March 3, 2010

Day 3/146

Pounds to go: 29

I’ve decided not to weigh today. Not because I expect bad results, I just can’t expect to lose a full pound ever day and don’t want to be disappointed when the scale doesn’t change.

Last night Tyler made tacos for supper. He loves to make tacos – and he does a great job! I had beans, hamburger, cheese, lettuce, salsa and a little bit of sour cream. I mixed it together and just ate it off a plate. I opted to not have the shells. Before bed I had about 1/3 cup of cottage cheese with a little bit of sugar on it. I know I shouldn’t have used the sugar, but have you ever tasted it without it?? It wasn’t that much…seriously. Maybe next time I’ll try it with Truvia.

This morning I had a bowl of Oatmeal Squares – again with a little bit of sugar. Just seems to be a habit I can’t break. I need to work on that.

I’ve been drinking a bottle of the Lipton White Tea and I think I’ve decided that I don’t really like it. Rats! I’m anxious to finish this bottle so I can drink something else. I ate an apple but am feeling weird. Not hungry…but not full. Kinda getting another headache. Maybe it’s work related. Who knows. Definitely ready to go home for lunch. 45 more minutes. I think I’ll have a Lean Cuisine for lunch. I’m hungry for something salty. It REALLY helps that I don’t have food in my desk. Well, I do have some peppermint patty pieces – like M&Ms but different, but they aren’t very good. I also have some cinnamon gold fish, but that doesn’t sound good. Oh…and I still have those hard candies from the other day. Those chocolate/caramel candies are AWESOME! It’s good I don’t have pretzels or the cheese flavored gold fish or I might be in trouble.

I was SO hungry when I went home for lunch!! I warmed up an ‘Eating Right’ lasagna, had a handful of gold fish and had a couple of croutons. I feel like I ate too much.

March 2, 2010

Day 2/147

Pounds to go: 29

I LOST A POUND!! WOO-HOO!

Last night after work I had a Jr. High track-parent meeting, then had to get ready for a sorority meeting so in that 20 minutes I was home I had a handful of croutons. ;-) Told you they sounded good. Then at sorority, I passed on the wine and nuts, and ice cream, but did have part of a piece of Connie’s banana cake. It would have been rude to pass that up too, right?? It was really good. I didn’t eat anything when I got home.

This morning I started my day with a bottle of grape juice and then a bottle of the Lipton White Tea. I woke up feeling like I was coming down with a sinus infection/cold or something like that. I kinda have a headache too. The good thing is, I really don’t have an appetite. That definitely helps. I definitely think about food more than I actually need food.

Oh…and the candy lady stopped by work today. She has one bag of stuff that I really like that probably wouldn’t be too bad for me, but she never has it in stock. It’s called Ponderosa Mix. It has dried cranberries, dark chocolate, almonds, and white chocolate. I feel guilty for not buying anything from her, so I figure if she has that in stock I’ll buy some. If she doesn’t, I won’t. Luckily today, she didn’t. Whew.

Went with Tyler to get is bi-weekly allergy shots. We stopped at Western, as we have been doing every Tuesday after his shots, to get him something to drink. I had him get me a Diet Pepsi. For himself, he got a bottle of juice and three rich, creamy, moist, chocolate Twinkies. He offered me one, but I refused. I think I probably gained my pound back just smelling them. Mmmm. I came back to work, and again, walking through the back door smelled cheesy Mexican food. Yesterday it was corn dish…today cheesy enchiladas, what the heck is going on?? There is a refrigerator back there and maybe someone has something in there that is very aromatic. Either that or I have a very interesting psychological issue causing me to smell Mexican food every time I walk into work. Wonder what that is all about???

Now I’m eating an orange. Not quite the same as a rich, chocolate Twinkie, or cheesy enchiladas, but it works.

Went home for lunch and had a can of tuna with a tablespoon of relish and a tablespoon of light mayonnaise. Also had another handful of croutons. :-\ For dessert I had about a 4th cup of glazed walnuts.

Tyler called and needed me to bring him some Benadryl. He had a reaction to his allergy shots today. It looked like there was a baseball under his skin! I had to run him back to the doctor’s office. Lori looked at it and said to take Benadryl and ice it – and to let them know if he has any problems breathing this afternoon. Yikes!! Experiences like that – or like when Tyler had his surgery – really get my adrenalin going. Now I kinda feel like I have a stomach ache. I guess I don’t really know where I’m trying to go with this paragraph or why I have it in my “diet journal” but I guess at the moment it just seemed like a good idea to write it down.

I feel bloated today. WTH?? Maybe because I’m FULL. Could it be? I am drinking a Crystal Light peach/mango drink that is supposed to help speed up metabolism. We’ll see if it works. By the way, I only drank half of the Diet Pepsi and threw the rest away. Good for me!

March 1, 2010

Day 1/148

Pounds to go: 30

Had part of a bottle of Welch’s 100% Grape Juice for breakfast. (200 cal/bottle, probably had a little over half.) Then got on the phone with Alltel – problems with my bill – and didn’t have time to eat/drink anything else.

Got to work with a bottle of Lipton White Tea (0 cal) have been sipping on it all morning. Went to get the mail – thought about stopping at the store to get a “snack”, but resisted. Then ran to Alco to get a gift for sorority. Picked up some lemon drops, jolly ranchers, life savers, and sugar-free chocolate/caramel crème savers. I only brought the crème savers into the office to keep in my drawer. (45 cal/1.5 g fat in 5 pieces.) I’ve had two and they are REALLY good! I am also having an apple. When I walked back in to the office after getting the mail I thought I smelled “corn dish”. I have no idea what it was I smelled – or thought I was smelling. It was probably nothing, but in my mind it sure smelled good. I haven’t decided between tuna or a Lean Cuisine for lunch. Hmmm…decisions, decisions.

Went home for lunch and had a Chicken Parmesan Lean Cuisine – it was AWESOME! I also had half a cucumber, 3 cherry tomatoes, 4 olives and 1T light Thousand Island dressing. It was such a great lunch that it was all gone before I even realized that I forgot to give Buddy a bite. Oh darn! I had two lemon drops for dessert – if you can call it that - and am now drinking a bottle of water.

It’s almost 3:00 and I’m doing good, but I can hear LaDan eating her snacks and it gave me a quick craving for croutons! (I love croutons – right out of the box! They don’t even have to be on a salad.) Guess I’ll have another crème saver instead.

It amazes me how many food triggers there are in a day. Even sitting here at my desk... I hear other people eating. I opened my hotmail and there was a picture of six pancakes dripping with syrup.